Hi, my name is Ashley and I was born on March 20th, 1986 and I live in Santa Rosa, California. I am having an ironic situation going on in my life right now and it has to do with a boy by the name of Matt who I met 3 years ago. Now, I can't say that I met this person physically, I met him on an online role playing game. I was the leader of a guild, or group and he was one of my highest ranking group members along with three others. I know how you can't really know a person through a virtual stance, but considering that I never really had any physical friends I considered these people to be real friends as much as they could be.
Matt seemed ok for a while after I added him to my guild, but one night when I was alone with him in the game he started talking about weird things, about how nothing in life mattered and he started talking about darkness and the abyss beyond. The things he said bugged me and hurt me, so I left the game, but later
I came back and he apologized, but after that whenever I was left alone with him in the game he would continue talking about strange things and he would often also start insulting me. The situation varied with him, I would leave and then I'd come back and he would apologize, or we simply wouldn't talk to each other for a while.
After a while I would start to fight back against many of the things Matt said and arguments happened again and again even long after I was done with this online game because I also had him on my msn messenger and on facebook. One day Matt showed me his picture on facebook and when I saw him some strange feeling came over me and I felt that his face seemed really familiar and I also had that feeling that something wasn't completed, but I couldn't place it, especially with it only being a photo.
There was also one night when he virtually kissed me, why he did that I don't know, but our arguments still persisted after that, but there was also moments when we'd kind of get along or simply not talk much to each other. Over the course of that 3 years things were on and off, we'd get along, we'd argue and there were moments when I'd leave for extended periods of time, but for some reason I'd always go back to him even though I knew it was foolish to, it was basically because of the reason that I felt that I needed to stick with him even if we didn't get along.
There was even one time when Matt said that he missed me. About a month ago my last nerve was popped with him, I had been having a really hard time the past few months before that because of other issues, I was talking with him and I told him that I didn't really have any friends and his reply was to me "it sucks to be you".
I left furious and I wrote him an e-mail telling him that he was wrong, that was better off by not having to deal with stupid people, but either way Matt poked at the one thing that I've been the most sensitive about in my entire life. I wasn't ever going to come back to talk to him again. I had been through so much that I didn't care whether or not I had a connection with him, I realized that he was just a jerk who I shouldn't have wasted time with.
After a few weeks from that last confrontation I felt better and I went to turn a new leaf in my life because I really felt that I needed to. I went looking on an online dating site for a guy to hang out with. This one boy found me and his name was Matt. I didn't think much of it of course, but he showed me his picture and unfortunately I couldn't clearly remember what Matt looked like, but I do know that he had long brown hair and brown eyes and was one year younger then me, but this new guy also had long brown hair and brown eyes and is also a year younger.
I've dated this new Matt (zodiac: Aries) for a few weeks now, this Sunday will be our 8th date and over the course the more and more I learn about him the more and more I learn that he is similar to the old Matt in so many physical ways, like the fact that he wears contacts/glasses, he has one sister, and his own cousin is his best friend.
He also responds to things in a lot of similar ways that Matt did too, like he says "mmk" a lot and he talks about his hair a lot and also the way he talks about what he does with his cousin and several other little things.
I went to ask the old Matt himself whether or not it was him and I didn't get a straight answer back like I knew I wouldn't "even if it was me you don't like me anyways", but I suppose it was evidence enough that it wasn't him, but still
I'm not sure. I am bugged by it, I know its impossible considering old Matt lives in Canada from what I've been told by himself. There was also another thing in the back of my mind, long ago when I first started my game guild I remember when I shared where I lived along with the other high ranking members and one of the four of them said "California...I remember living in that place" sad thing is, I don't remember which one of them said it.
I know its impossible as I said before, but I want to know if it's possible that this is the same guy, and if not, why is this strange coincidence happening to me? I could use any guidance and help in this situation, I'd greatly appreciate it. Also to whoever reads this I'd be willing to give more information or clarity if needed. Thanks.
